So, I Really Do Suck At Discipline, Huh

Last time I screamed into the empty, echoing tubes of the internet, I talked about how having an 8-5 in-office job had forced me into stronger writing discipline and focus.

Seems appropriate that this blog now starts with a complete breakdown of that, considering my self-imposed (and rarely met) schedule of a blog post every other Thursday having once again been missed.

Honest to G-d, I just straight up forgot. I have reminders on my phone and everything, and still somehow managed to fail.

Le sigh.

On the writing front, I haven’t done much new. Before drafting this I did receive a personal rejection for a story–but of course I can’t entirely understand what it was they didn’t like, so.

….le sigh.

Writing is a challenge. My saving grace is I love it. I may never be successful, but I will keep doing it, if for no other reason than the pleasure of putting words to paper (metaphorically, considering I use Word and Google Docs). Even if ultimately its just beta readers and/or friends and family who enjoy my work, that’s actually pleasure enough to continue.

I hope those of you out there reading this also find that same solace. I know we all want to be successful. After all, it would be weird if you didn’t want that. Who wants to write stuff that nobody likes?

Its good to have realistic goals. I’ve heard the stories of people who want to write a book ‘because it will give them financial freedom’ or some other dumb such. Please don’t be that person. Write because you love it. That’s the one thing you have full control over. Write for yourself, or for a few select others. Hope for the best after that, sure! But writing the next big thing for the sake of writing the next big thing is a bit like playing the lotto. Love it or hate it, Twilight was a smash hit, and definitely gave Stephenie Meyer financial freedom. And she initially wrote it as fan-fiction, really just for herself. You can debate for hours the quality of the work, and even the moral implications of her MC’s arc and decisions, but at the end of the day I would firmly state she wrote it for the right reasons: to give herself joy.

If writing is ‘work’, if it doesn’t bring you happiness just to do it, then don’t. Chances are it won’t work out.

Love your craft. Either the rest will come or it won’t, and while there are fantastic resources out there to help you turn it into a career, at the end of the day there’s only so much you can control when it comes to financial success. Maybe people will love your work. Maybe they won’t. But you can love it.

Sometimes it’s best to just write what you want, work your ass off to make it the best it can be, and then go with that.

Which is what I will now continue doing. Till next time, one person who reads this. Till next time.

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